In some ways today was worse (for me) than yesterday because today we know that what is broken in my dad can't be fixed, at least for now. That knowledge means that now we have a new reality and it's not what we'd hoped for.
Dad is still in ICU. We spent some time there today, but we couldn't really talk to him because he's still on a breathing tube and we were under instructions not to get him too excited. He needs to rest and recover. So we stayed in the room for awhile, reading or thinking. He woke up a couple of times. Once he wanted to know what time it was. The other time he wanted to know how the surgery went. Wouldn't it be strange to not to know how your surgery went? To lose track of time?
Tomorrow I'll head back home and my dad will still be in the hospital. The last time I saw him here at home was in mid-August. :( I'll be back in mid-February. I am hopeful that he will be home at that time.
My mom and my sister are holding it together. When we leave the hospital, the three of us are quiet and contemplative. We don't talk too much. We are all sad and feeling a little helpless. I'm glad that we are together.
Here's hoping that tomorrow is a better day.
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I am so, so sad for you. I too had hoped for a better result. But I'm still glad you have all been there for him and for each other.
I'm also very thankful that you write about it here so I can follow what is happening. I tried to call Jo via Skype yesterday but no answer so I suppose you were in the hospital then.
I'm glad also that Lizzie isn't that far away and that she can go every other weekend.
It's hard when you are far away from your loved ones. I know because when I visit my Mom it takes a whole day to go there and back and since she's in a home it is what it is.
Have a safe trip back home and I pray for you all and you are in my thoughts all the time.
Love you!
Sending you big hugs
Mia <3
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