#3013 revenge bedtime procrastination

The other day I was telling my co-worker DM that I felt tired because I got to bed around midnight. I told her I'd catch a second wind and started doing something I enjoy, and time slips away from me. Even though I know it is getting late and I feel sleepy, I don't want to go to bed because I really like this "me time" and the flow I get into. Another co-worker who heard the conversation told us there is a name for this phenomenon, so I googled it and sure enough, there is. It's called Revenge Bedtime Procrastination (RBP), or just bedtime procrastination. It is driven by the absence of leisure in your free time. 

This has been a "thing" for me for months, and it only happens Sunday through Thursday nights. On Friday or Saturday nights, I have no problem calling it a day by 9:00 PM, and it must be because I know I will have the whole next day to do stuff I want to do and my time is my own. On Sunday through Thursday nights, I know I have to work the next day and my free time is very limited, so when I finally get to have me-time, it is not long enough to be satisfying. 

I thought I was the only person experiencing this thing, but I'm not. It seems that it is related to ADHD, which I do not have; I'm just selfish and want to have time to do things I want to do. (LOL)

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I've got a big week coming up starting tomorrow. It is my last week of work. Tomorrow I'll be in the office "consulting" and encouraging my co-worker DM who will be taking over my job. On Tuesday, a couple of former co-workers have invited me to lunch. Wednesday I have an appointment with my GP, and then I think I'm working from home, but it depends on what DM wants to do, and Thursday is my final day of work. I think there is going to be a little luncheon which will be nice. MT and T will be home Thursday afternoon, and the three of us will celebrate my retirement together. I told MT I want to go to the local pub in the neighborhood and he seemed surprised that I didn't want to go somewhere else, I don't know, fancier? More expensive? Friday I will on permanent vacation, thought technically still on the payroll until Dec. 25. Wow. This is really happening. I feel excited and a little anxious.