#2081 WW Wednesday: within sight and still far away

I'm back from my mini-vacation to Southern California. It was pretty fantastic. I ate good food, drank  good beer and spent good time with my mom and my sister. I won't go on about too many details, but spending Tuesday afternoon on Coronado at the Sun Deck at the Hotel del Coronado was a highlight. It was such a beautiful day! There was a great breeze, but the sun was warm so we were comfortable without being sweaty. The beer was cold and those rosemary garlic fries were crazy good. If you ever have a chance to spend a few hours on Coronado, I definitely recommend sitting out on the deck at the hotel and having a drink. Don't pass up those fries, either.

Last Saturday I didn't make it to the WW meeting. We got home late from Sundance and I just wanted to sleep in, so I did. Weighing in didn't seem like a very good idea anyway because I'd had a big eating week with our anniversary dinner on Wednesday. I just couldn't seem to get my food intake right last week and frankly, I haven't been good at it this week either. I'll bite the bullet and make sure to weigh in this Saturday.

It's a little frustrating because I am close to reaching a significant goal, and I'll come within a couple of pounds, then I'll sabotage myself by going a bit wild with my eating and not taking care of what's important. I've given this a lot of thought and it almost seems like I'm subconsciously afraid to reach this milestone goal that can be tantalizingly close and then seems just out of reach. I know I'm gonna get there, but I keep screwing it up by being lazy and falling back into old habits. It's hard to explain, but that's kind of how I feel. I want to reach the goal, but it's kind of scary, too. That makes no sense, does it?

My flight was delayed yesterday, so I didn't get home until just after midnight. I had a hard time falling asleep when I did get to bed, so I only slept just over five hours. I've been dragging today (and not eating well, of course). I did make it to the gym for a lively Zumba class this evening, so I'm really tired now. I think I'll go ahead and get to bed.

Good night!