#1172 I thought I was going to write about my new shoes but...

Make-up and shoes. Those are two things you can buy that will always fit. I'd like to add jewelry to that list. Earrings always fit, usually better than shoes.

This morning I was feeling blue because at my WW weigh-in this morning, I gained back that stupid 1.6 lbs that I dropped off last week. GRRR. I'm a yo-yo. The really pathetic thing is that I KNOW when I'm making bad food choices, but I can't seem to stop myself.

When I got home from WW, I had a good long chat with myself about making better choices. I reflected on what were some things that contributed to my weight loss success in the past and asked myself if I had the fortitude to step up and do those things again. I asked myself if I felt better/happier/stronger/healthier when I was like this:

me in 2008 (in the Dominican Republic)

or like this:

me in 2010 (in Barbados)

While I know that I am fabulous no matter what my weight is, (that's what you're supposed to tell yourself, right?) I'm telling you straight up that I felt a lot more confident and healthier in 2010 than in 2008. My self-esteem has taken a plunge in the past couple of years as I have put weight back on.

Last year in particular, I found myself to be very unhappy. I kind of gave up on myself. I didn't even try to look my best because I didn't feel like my best was good enough. My work suffered, my family suffered and I suffered because I wasn't happy with myself. I won't go through that again.

Whoa. This is not where I was expecting this post to go! I just meant to tell you about the new shoes I bought today. Guess I'm in my head way more than I thought.

Send some kind thoughts and good vibes my way, please friends, as I continue to struggle with my weight loss demons. :)