#2203 miscellaneous Monday

Have you ever had one of those days when you are just angry? I almost wrote "...angry for no apparent reason?" but I do have reasons and I have been trying hard all day to get over it but I haven't been successful. I don't think I want to get into the reasons here today right now, but I'm just venting that I am upset and mean and awful today and I don't like it.

By the way, I'm back at my house now. I left California yesterday. That is part of my irritation...I don't sleep as well at home as I do at my mom's house. My dog is getting old and she's chubby and can't jump up on my bed sometimes, so she comes over to my side of the bed and sort of grumbles at me. It almost sounds like she's growling, but without the malice. My husband snores. My son is a vampire and is up at night. He's very quiet, like a ninja, but between the two souls that make noise, I am somewhat awake and aware of the stealthy vampire ninja that is moving around.

I am an emotional eater, so when I'm sad or angry or happy, I want to eat and I don't mean salad or other healthy foods. So far today I have done pretty well with harnessing my need to stuff my face full of junk food. When I went to the grocery store I did stand in the bakery section for longer than was necessary and I picked up a couple of different things, but I put them all down and left the store without so much as a bag of chips, a jar of Nutella or a box of cookies. I'd say that's a win, even though I'm angry that I DON'T have any of those things.

Instead I am drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper which sort of tastes like dessert in a bottle. I got a couple of movies from Redbox, so I'm about ready to go downstairs to watch them. I might get some take-out Mexican food for dinner.

MT has gone with his brother to Idaho. The brother flew in from Missouri today and MT is taking him back home. T is here. He's out mowing the lawn. There was a lot of rain here last week and the grass is tall and lush. I've been doing chores and fuming all day, so I really just need to relax and chill the f out, you know what I mean?

Here's to a happier tomorrow.