While talking to my mom and sister the other night, Mom commented that she'd been reading this blog and noted that I write about food a lot. For some reason, the comment bothered me. So, being me, I thought about why it bothered me so much. I think it's because I am sensitive about my weight, and therefore sensitive about food.
For the record, this year I have posted 34 times and tagged "food" or "cooking" six times. Maybe that's a lot.
It doesn't really matter, because as much as I post about food, I actually think about it constantly. Like, all the time. If there's one thing you can't get away from, it's eating. I know that for me, if I don't plan what I will eat and take the time to prepare it, all the weight that I have lost will come back in a flash because I will eat whatever is nearby. If I don't have a food plan, I will find myself with a donut for breakfast, fast food burger and fries for lunch, and take-out pizza for dinner. I know this about myself because I have done it. Living like that put on a lot of pounds until I figured out something had to be done.
My mom says that her mother always said, "Just eat what you want in moderation." How I would love to be a person who could do that, eat in moderation, but I'm not. If I was, then as a child I could have told my grandma that I didn't need six hot dogs or tell my aunt that one donut would be plenty. If I could eat in moderation, I could go to the cookie store and just get one cookie, or stop eating chips when I felt full. Most of the time, I just can't. Or I won't. Because I don't.
Enter Weight Watchers. Now I pay them hundreds of dollars a year to help me figure out what to eat. WW has made eating a bit of a game for me, which I like. They tell me I can have so many points every day, and then I try to figure out how to be satisfied by my meals within those points. I'm on a plan that has a lot of zero point foods. Those foods include chicken, eggs, brown rice, whole wheat pasta, all the veggies, all the fruits, Greek yogurt, steel cut oats, etc. I use my points on things that make those kinds of foods taste good, like cheese, butter or oil, bread, etc.
Yes, it's kind of a hassle. At one point in the late 2000s, I thought I had it under control and I left WW, only to go back about eight months later because the weight was coming back. This time around, the losing has been slow, but it's coming off again finally. I wish I could be a person with enough sense to be able to do it on my own. I know that I am not, and I learned that the hard way.
So yeah, I think about food all the time. I write about it because sometimes that's really all I have to write about and I made a commitment to myself that I would write here every other day. Sometimes my life is pretty dull, but there's always food. I'm probably going to keep writing about it because I like to write. And I like food.
Happy weekend, everyone. Wash your hands.
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